Maybe a puppy, I’ve wanted one for sometime… I need someway to teach me how to do things right. I see the way puppies run to there owners time and time again, no matter how many times you may spray water at it. I want someone to depend on me to take care of them and love them and give them what they need and want. I think it will make me a better person, because I feel like that’s what I need to learn how to do.

I have never been so happy before. Every ounce of happiness has a simple reason. One word, one name…her. How she does it, I don’t know. But she’s a professional at it. It’s like she can read my mind. She says things that I’m about to say, it’s so amazing, we’re perfect for each other (: 

Knowing how happy I can be; true happiness. Makes me hate every second not being able to be there with her. I wish people understood this feeling. It makes me feel unbeatable, like there is no end to life or existence of any emotion but love.

Imagine what it’s like, every sight of this special person, your heart goes “boomboom”. You get a tingling sensation all over your body, you feel your body get weaker and weaker as they get closer. There is no way to describe the way I feel, there never will be…the only thing is that I know she is the key to my happiness. She’s the only thing that makes me happy. And she has accomplsihed so much and there’s no limits for her and wherever her life takes her. I will always be here, thank you

Have you ever met someone so special that your only fear becomes losing that person? You begin to question every move you make, every word you say. You start thinking about if they’ll still think of you the same and still love you the same way they did a second ago. I have.

If I did have to think on the spot of things I am afraid of it would be losing her. Things have changed, i suddenly don’t have fears of sharks or silly things like the dark, or monsters under the bed. It’s like I’m immune to fear with her in my life. But no one can ever be unbeatable, she brings me to my highest potential and can also put me in the worst slump of my life. I can’t lose her. Just that one thought right there; a capturing image of madness. An image of her not in the image seems impossible if that makes sense.

I feel bad for giving her trouble and putting her through these things that she shouldn’t have to go through. All this trouble she goes through because of me: the late nights not doing homework, the energy she loses putting up with me and so much more, the amount of valuable time she has sacrificed to be with me is amazing. I am grateful for everything. I just want to give her better and better but I don’t know how. It’s kind of sad actually, I can’t give her what she deserves. It sucks walking around seeing all the cooler better guys out there that she could be with. Sometimes I wish I could be those guys amazing her with ease. 

I hope I was able to make her happy today though. Today we made 2 months together but in reality it’s been so much longer. Today was so good! From the beginning to the end. My morning was perfect, I was sleeping and I get a phone call at 7 in the morning with a familiar voice saying “Happy anniversary” hahaha i was so out of it because I just woke up. I don’t even remember what I said back or if I even did say anything back. But i was smiling. I had the biggest smile ever! It felt so good.

I haven’t really spent time with her lately though, feels like years since we’ve actually hung out which I’m just not use to. She’s got so much going on in her life; so many opportunities at hand and I would never be able to forgive myself if she let them slip away because of me. I’m learning how to give her more space because I’ve probably suffocated her to death by now (which she would probably agree). I’m so happy for her and I’m even more lucky just to be able to call her my girlfriend.

I still remember those first times we met and spent time together at the park. It’s crazy has quickly time passes by. I swear it was just yesterday that I watched you making a physics bridge and now it is I making one myself, how does that happen? I still remember the very first time we hung out outside of school away from the school. The time at you dad’s house where I was too much of a girl to kiss you haha. I’ve always had feelings for you from the start, hope you know that. Those long days over summer wondering how you were doing, wondering if you still had feelings for me. Those long nights creating our secret messages; the true beginning of everything. haha thank you for everything. We’ve overcome every obstacle and it looks like there are no limits, thank you for everything (:

So i am finally back in Hawaii where I truly do belong. I am deathly tired because of my lack of sleep (getting up at 5 in the morning two days in a row). I cannot wait until I finally get to drive because then I get to leave this house which is honestly holding me back from getting anywhere in life. I only have to wait a couple of months before I am allowed to get my permit and then by that time I hope someone will have their license and I’ll be able to go around everywhere with no limits. I cannot wait.

It felt so good to finally return back to Hawaii. She made me feel so welcomed and gave me the happiest 10 minutes in the last 4-5 days. It felt so good to see her face again. It felt so unreal. As if being with her had become a dream. You should have seen the look on her face. I didn’t know what to say, or what to do. The memory is still very feint in my mind but I know I was relieved to finally hug her and be with her again after what seemed to be like years.

I cannot wait until I get to see her tomorrow. I missed her so much and I’m so happy to have someone like her in my life. I’m the luckiest man in the world (:

-Life With Jason

So I am somewhere in Arizona. It’s a very small town and I have been here for too long, I forget how many day. But I am deeply missing something and it’s killing me. This “mini journey” (as she called it) has made me realize how much MORE important she is to me and how much i truly need her in my life. If you think I am another silly boy who would do anything for love, you need to follow the rest of this…

Imagine someone who can always put a smile on your face no matter what is happening in your life. Throughout the worst of the worst events, someone who’s always there. The day I went to the airport i dropped by her house and she made me a lunch! she packed me two lunches, one for the car ride and one for the plane, she gave me movies to watch on the plane and she tried her best to make sure I was happy which I am very thankful for. I bet you your girlfriend has never done that. She’s been there for me and she always will be, i know it. This girl is so amazing, she means the world for me. When I look into her dark brown eyes, I know that nothing in the world can go wrong. Seeing her in front of me makes everything better. She gives me this extraordinary feeling in my stomach; like a tingling sensation.

However…how can someone be happy without that person in there life? without that person right next to them 24/7? For me this question is still unanswered. I have been stumbling without her next to me, i find myself a lot less happy than the last few days before i left her. The last few days with her were perfect, there’s no other way to describe it. I find myself dreaming more and more of being back in her arms…making an impact of her life, keeping her happy. I miss her terribly :(

-This is Life With Jason

note: first blog post ever

i joined tumblr because my girlfriend was like you should make one….i hope it’s worth it (: